Here We go Again

Here We Go Again

So here we go again
the pen and me
waiting for answers
to be told
without questions
to hold my tongue

what is my life?
where am I?
Lost
for so long
looking for love
craving intimacy, connection

Breaking away
suffocated, airless, held down
I back away from myself
I want freedom
so much, so much more
than I think of myself or others see me

You cannot see me when I hide
behind care and concern
ever faithful servant
the good girl
mother
friend and lover

push it down
push it down
it will pass
Buddha said
but here I am again
the pen and me